Love, Chocolate & Strange Attractors

From: Pluto
To: Emma(H)
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
Subject: G'mornin

I woke up singing this song this morning..."I just want to celebrate....another day of livin'....". Don't ask me why. The dog thought it was pretty strange, anyway.

Glad you were finally able to get to your work messages. It did feel weird not having our daily conversation. It was a great excuse to do voices though...not that we need one. You're right about the flow of our relationship....smooth as silk.

Don't worry about pulling my covers (are we back to Freud again??...sorry, no little black something today). One of my big lessons in this life (and I'm still getting used to it) is that holding your cards close to your vest only goes so far. Remind me to tell you the story of the little boy in the supermarket someday....but that's for another day...I can't tell you all my secrets in one day, now can I?

Hey, I found something cool in my mailbox!!...Thank you, you're a sweetheart! I love the cover graphics, kind of reminds me of the computer drawings of "strange attractors"...and oooooh those
hugs....(remember...every one you send comes back double).

Well, now I've got something to listen to today besides the hum of my computer. I guess I better do some work......

My day is already delicious..............hope yours is.........love you too, P


From: Emma
To: Pluto
Subject: Re: G'mornin
Date: Tue, 14 Sep

I'm glad the music arrived! Enjoy. It's a good sign when you wake up singing "Celebrate."

What an affirmation to be invited to speak to a high school class! I'd love to see you in action. I'm sure I'll get the opportunity some day.......I hope it is soon. (No, I'm not being Freudian again!!!) Your true self is powerful, indeed, and I am honored that you have shared it so freely with me. The world needs you in order to heal, my Pluto.

So no "little black something" today, huh? I never knew that Taurus and Scorpio were such a powerful combo........but we already knew that didn't we.......and are discovering it more and more each day. Astrologically, it is sort of the yin-yang thing with those two signs......but with us, we are the same. I don't feel incomplete and I don't think you are incomplete..........but we are so much the same, it makes an even more powerful connection. I don't know if that makes any sense. By the way, Taurus and Sag are death to one another, at least in my limited experience (hahahaha)...........

One of my women friends is an attorney and her firm is doing a client appreciation gig Thursday night by hosting dinner aboard a cruise ship that goes up and down the river. If there is room, she's going to invite me so I can do some networking. May turn up some job prospects.

What are strange attractors? (Other than us, I mean!) Is it like a fractal?

Talk to you soon, sweet Pluto.........................love, Emma

-----Original Message-----
From: Emma
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Pluto
Subject: RE: ps

Any excuse for another hug is just fine with me. The CD is incredible isn't it. The cut entitled "fear" is compelling. Yes, she reaches right into us. Thank you for the .gif.........it is beautiful. I love fractals and agree that they represent the paradox (balance?) between order and chaos. Like the I Ching, nothing stays in equilibrium for long but ebbs and flows.

I'm scared about next week but also very excited to learn what the astrologer has to say. What time do you meet with her on Tuesday? I'll be there, you know.

I'll write a bit more later. I need to read some other e-mail (I always read yours first!).........love, Emma

-----Original Message-----
From: Pluto
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Emma
Subject: RE: ps

I'm meeting with The astrologer at 3:30 my time...I'll save a seat for you. Actually, I think she only has 2 chairs in the room we're meeting in, so you'll have to sit on my lap, OK? ...............L, P

-----Original Message-----
From: Emma
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Pluto
Subject:RE: ps

no place else I'd rather be!!...............love, Emma

-----Original Message-----
From: Pluto
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Emma
Subject: RE: ps

Somehow I knew that....but it's nice to hear you say it anyway....Love, P

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From: Pluto
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Emma
Subject:

Just heard Sarah say "...your love is better than chocolate....".................!!!

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From: Emma
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Pluto
Subject: RE:

Hard to believe.......but true............!!

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From: Pluto
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Emma
Subject: RE:

With all that we've encountered in the last couple of months I'm not sure there's much left that is hard to believe....on the other hand, we are talking about chocolate

-----Original Message-----
From: Emma
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Pluto
Subject: RE:

I know...I thought about that, too, after I sent that last message. Especially if we're talking about Godiva's dark chocolate (mmmmmmmmm, can't get enough of that!!) Sometimes M&Ms work just as well, though! One day I walked into our finance person's office and said, "Hand over the chocolate and no one gets hurt!" A few weeks ago he brought me a box o Godiva just because he heard I like it. Pretty nice, huh.

However, since we'll never be through with this (you are stuck with me!)....I guess we can have both. Being the greedy little Taurus that I am, I like that idea And since there are so many lifetimes between us, it really doesn't matter.....we will be connected in ways we may never fully understand.

One of the horoscopes I was reading talking about Taurus and Scorpio said, "there is soul mate material here." I thought, "Well, duh!".........we already knew that.............love you, Emma

-----Original Message-----
From: Pluto
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Emma
Subject: RE:

Chocolate and love in the same sentence conjures up all sorts of devilish little scenarios in my mind...but I suppose I'd better keep them to myself for now..........love, P

p.s. does godiva make chocolate syrup that comes in a squeeze bottle?

-----Original Message-----
From: Emma
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Pluto
Subject: RE:

You just hit upon one of my fantasies :-)

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From: Pluto
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Emma
Subject: RE:

I know ;-)

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From: Emma
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Pluto
Subject: RE:

Oh, of course you did.........how silly of me to think otherwise!!!

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From: Emma
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Pluto
Subject:

I have to go downtown and I may not get back before you leave. If not, here's a to keep you until tomorrow. I'll be here another 20 minutes or so......love,

-----Original Message-----
From: Pluto
Sent: Tuesday, September 14
To: Emma
Subject: RE:

OK....I'll be there with you....which reminds me of a song I heard a street musician singing in Northampton....

"...you can't get rid of me, I'm in your DNA..."

have a good meeting and stay centered!!

Big wet slobbering chocolate kiss............P

edge dwellers

From: Emma
Sent: Sunday, September 12
To: Pluto
Subject: After the weekend

Hope you had a terrific weekend. It was gorgeous here...felt like fall in the mornings and evenings but was hot during the day. Very sweet. This was a weekend of play and household repairs for me. Friday night I went out to dinner with a group of friends to a fairly new Caribbean restaurant I've wanted to try. It was incredible! This afternoon a bunch of us went to see "Sixth Sense." It was very good and thrilling....very interesting twist at the end of the movie.

I'm really dreading work tomorrow. My spiritual advisor here says I don't have enough information to know if I'm supposed to leave by October 15th or not. She is advising against any rash decisions just like the I Ching and believes I still have work to do there. Crap!

I will look forward to more virtual hugs tomorrow...I really missed them over the weekend although I hadn't let go from last week. It's nice to get the regular reminders.

I went over to my ex's house to wish him a happy 50th today. It was kind of bittersweet... sometimes I feel so terribly alone and I guess this is one of those times. I know I'm not in the metaphysical sense, but in the physical realm I sometimes crave companionship. Weekends can be especially difficult... guess that's why I do so much with my friends. Ok, enough of this crap.

Can't wait to hear from you........make it soon, okay?............love, Emma

From: Emma
To: Pluto
Subject: Hey...
Date: Mon, 13 Sep

...you know how I was telling you that my go.com horoscope said this was going to be a time of romance for me? Well, I was looking at another horoscope on the web tonight and IT says it will be a Scorpio in "a little black something." Aaaaahahahaha

----- Original Message -----
From: Pluto
To: Emma
Sent: Monday, September 13
Subject: RE: mmmm

You're welcome!...hugs are one of those things that you can never really "give away"

I saw a silly foreign comedy on video this weekend called "Mouth to Mouth"(Spanish with subtitles). It's about a struggling actor who gets a job doing phone sex and what happens when he gets involved with one of the few female callers. Not academy award material, but it had a few laughs and was original at least.

phone's ringing............

Well, The astrologer just called (synchronicity??) to say she has done the charts and recommended another 1/2 hour.(I had originally scheduled a 1/2 hour) She didn't know if 1/2 hour would be enough and I still had a half hour credit from a Christmas gift so I scheduled the full hour ...still can't wait...patience, patience

Hope your day at work isn't too draining...just lean on me if you need too..........love, P

From: Pluto
To: "Emma
Subject:
Date: Mon, 13 Sep

The horoscopes you sent sound great...but I don't know how I could get any weirder...

How do you plan to get "funky"??

From: Emma
To: Pluto
Subject: Re: mmmm
Date: Mon, 13 Sep

Wow! It sounds like The astrologer has a lot to say!! Now I'm even more excited about this. It is very cool.

Hey, I wanted to say.....I don't think you're weird. (you asked how you could get any weirder...) You are definitely an edge-dweller, but that's one of the things I love about you...I'm an edge-dweller, too. In the early '80's my guiding principle was "never go farther than far, far too far." Twenty years has moderated me a lot, but I still tend to hang out there on the edge......it's where I feel most alive. I suspect that is true for you too.

I'm going to work now.....see you there .........love, E

-----Original Message-----
From: Pluto
Sent: Monday, September 13
To: Emma
Subject:

I just wanted to be here when you arrived at work...I know how good it feels when you're waiting for me in the morning.

You're right; I am an "edge dweller" (I love that term!!) and love being that way. I'm less apt to act that way than think on the edge, however. As the astrologer would tell you, I tend to hold my cards close to my vest. Although I have done my share of going far, far too far, also. I love that you have been to the edge and back also. It must be one of the many past lives we have shared.

Have a perfect morning....talk to you soon.....Love, P

-----Original Message-----
From: Emma
Sent: Monday, September 13
To: Pluto
Subject: RE:

Yea! I finally got to read your message. It felt really good, just like you were sitting here with me, holding my hand and talking....I love that our conversations flow with such ease. I know you hold your cards close to your vest; but someday you won't feel the need to do that anymore....at least not with me. (oops, did I pull your covers on that one??) Actually you've shared a LOT with me...enough for me to know that we are the same person in so many respects. Like I said, my life is pretty transparent and I will talk about most anything....about the only thing I haven't told you about is what my women friends and I talk about and my sexual fantasies.

You asked last week if there would ever come a time when we were through with this....I don't think so....I think you're stuck with me...hope that's okay. 'Cuz I can't imagine not having contact with you at this point.

I agree that it's more my thoughts that are on the edge than anything else these days, and that's a safer, more mature way to be. Yep, it must be one of the many lives we are sharing. I'm really glad we get to share this one, too. Sometimes I wonder why it takes so long for people to find one another, but I don't think I would have been ready any sooner for something this special.

Have a delicious day, my loving friend............love you, Emma


From: Pluto
To: Emma(H)
Subject: forgot!!
Date: Mon, 13 Sep

How could I forget.............. love, your P